discouraged.

senior year is slowly and quickly coming to an end. i graduate 3 weeks from saturday. it's so surreal.
but, we have a certain ceremony coming up in a week or so. i hate being worried about things like this. i hate feeling like i might get something, setting my expectations for something to happen, and then nothing does. i don't want to expect that i'll get something, but it's something i want and i hate feeling this selfish. i hate working hard and not getting credit, but i know that the Lord has seen my work. i know He will honor it. but, it's hard to sit here, on earth, and watch as others get something that i've worked hard for.

alrighty, Lord, remove this selfish desire from my heart. help me to place this whole situation in your hands and that no matter what happens, you'll get all the glory. help me to trust in You.

  

Don't think God is listening to your prayers? Indeed he is. But he may have higher plans. -Max Lucado