awake my soul: A Comfortable Being

I've been putting off writing this post for a while now. I think I knew that if I wrote it, then the reality of me leaving would smack me in the face. But, I need to write this. Even if no one else reads this, I need to write it for my own good. To close this chapter of my life.

I'm a "comfortable being". I like order, I like knowing what's going to happen, and I like plans. I like to be IN control of the situation. I like to know that my parents are just down the road, that I have a paycheck every two weeks, and ultimately what is expected of me at work. I like knowing what's going on. I really don't know what my days will look like this summer. Which is why going to Australia scares me to death.

I have enjoyed every single moment of my internship with the high school ministry. I have enjoyed watching students grow, getting to serve them, and ultimately just do life with them. I have gotten comfortable with them. I can hang out with them, be myself, and know that they'll still love me at the end of the day. They are a HUGE part of my comfort zone. Which is exactly why I need to go to Australia.

The past few weeks, I've been in an awkward in between phase, a holding place between two seasons of my life. I'm excited for Australia, yet I'm sad to leave some sweet students (and friends and family). So, I've been spending a lot of my free time with them, and I'm already looking forward to hear all the great things God does in their lives and hearts this summer!